my brother in arcanist, what the hell are you talking about?
"most of these posts have since become more rage bait to feed whatever narrative everyone's made for me"? "and get me riled up to respond in a way that only confirms what they think of me"? "they'll just use whatever I say to further feed some image of me they've already made"?
no, dude, you're doing a fine job of giving us the image and narrative we should have of you with your own imagined heroism. you're creating villains out of the anons here because we don't immediately kowtow to your version of events and lived experiences, and making a worse villain out of toxx for miswording something badly. i GET what upsets you and empathize deeply - i'm a recovered gambling addict - but you are going about your traumas in the wrong way by getting far too involved in the lives of perfect strangers on the internet you have no business lecturing. people who care about your reasons can and will seek you out if they want to know why you feel the way you do.
"I made my post to get it off my chest, not to 'clear the air'"?
then WHY did you come HERE, specifically, where people were already heavily critical of you? you've explained to us about your reasons (which we already knew since you overshared about them in the auction thread, if vaguely) TWICE now, and you don't think that's a desperate attempt to clear the air? you 'get things off your chest' to people who care and your personal religious leaders to absolve yourself of regrets, not to people who you personally believe have a less than stellar idea of you and are currently talking about your observed public actions.
"I'm not here to feed that so continue thinking what you will of me"?
then just shut up and leave! there's no reason to stick around and continue saying so damn much! no need to announce that you're exiting the conversation; just go! you're a whole individual who shouldn't need acknowledgement that you're leaving!
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(frozen comment) Re: 100x777 argument
(Anonymous) 2025-01-09 12:16 am (UTC)(link)"most of these posts have since become more rage bait to feed whatever narrative everyone's made for me"?
"and get me riled up to respond in a way that only confirms what they think of me"?
"they'll just use whatever I say to further feed some image of me they've already made"?
no, dude, you're doing a fine job of giving us the image and narrative we should have of you with your own imagined heroism. you're creating villains out of the anons here because we don't immediately kowtow to your version of events and lived experiences, and making a worse villain out of toxx for miswording something badly. i GET what upsets you and empathize deeply - i'm a recovered gambling addict - but you are going about your traumas in the wrong way by getting far too involved in the lives of perfect strangers on the internet you have no business lecturing. people who care about your reasons can and will seek you out if they want to know why you feel the way you do.
"I made my post to get it off my chest, not to 'clear the air'"?
then WHY did you come HERE, specifically, where people were already heavily critical of you? you've explained to us about your reasons (which we already knew since you overshared about them in the auction thread, if vaguely) TWICE now, and you don't think that's a desperate attempt to clear the air? you 'get things off your chest' to people who care and your personal religious leaders to absolve yourself of regrets, not to people who you personally believe have a less than stellar idea of you and are currently talking about your observed public actions.
"I'm not here to feed that so continue thinking what you will of me"?
then just shut up and leave! there's no reason to stick around and continue saying so damn much! no need to announce that you're exiting the conversation; just go! you're a whole individual who shouldn't need acknowledgement that you're leaving!
(frozen comment) Re: 100x777 argument
(Anonymous) 2025-01-09 04:46 am (UTC)(link)(frozen comment) Re: 100x777 argument
(Anonymous) 2025-01-09 05:30 am (UTC)(link)actually, i'm not! i'm just a jokester who likes to make arcanist jesus jokes.