It's almost like I combat my depression by masking it with jokes or something to look stronger tan I really am. I am not an expressive person and don't like acknowledging my own weakness around friends.
if you feel as though your friends will not support you if you are honest and open about your weaknesses and issues, they sound like shit friends. you deserve better, dakkokki. if you want to get better you need to make the conscious effort to surround yourself with people who will enable you to be honest and mature about your mistakes, NOT people who egg you on into drama circlejerking about your very real, very harmful mistakes. you cannot grow in that environment and you cannot convince people that you have grown if you continue to act that way.
No, no, like, it doesn't matter how people support me or not, it's more of a personal thing. Even in person I'm the type to hide away anything I view as a weakness from people. This is an entire personal thing. I have been honest about my mistakes majority of the time, I've acknowledged what has happened in the past and that I do not approve of said past in the slightest.
enough rp. your weaknesses are not hidden, they're on full display and they show in every lying, misdirecting post you make. this is your present self and people don't like it, sucks to suck
but you haven't been honest about those mistakes. the last 3 days has been you getting caught in provable lie after lie.
you lied about: - tracing art on FR - selling this traced art - repeatedly tracing furry art and re-uploading this art (you still have not addressed this) - telling SMR admins to delete posts - AND you provided misleading screenshots to "prove" you did not message SMR admins, which makes all other proof you've provided questionable.
i understand forgetting things - i have had multiple TBIs that make daily life challenging. i understand being embarrassed by your past - we have all done stupid things we regret. but you're only "honest" after people provide screenshots that you cannot squirm out of, and then in addressing it you come across as deeply insincere by either providing some excuse or treating it like a meme/joke. you saying "i was shitty back then" is meaningless when you are still failing to appropriately address it now.
Please try to seek help for this outside of the internet.
This is not a healthy personality trait. You need to learn actually healthy coping mechanisms if you ever want to be better.
There is no reason to continue being this person. You can be a better and happier person if you put in the work and acknowledge that there are still very unhealthy traits about you.
All right, I will give you a genuine response, in case this is you and a real response instead of trolling.
If you can't trust any of your friends to support you in your moments of weakness, you truly have no good friends. My online friends, they see me when I'm angry, when I'm hurt, and they even saw and helped me through grieving. Never did any of them encourage or cheer on self harmful or inappropriate coping methods.
As someone with depression and a whole slew of other things wrong with me... I understand it's difficult. It's rough to drop the mask. But what you've done here is hurting you.
I told you before to stop replying, Dakkokki. I wasn't trying to be mean. I do believe you need to step away and talk to whatever real support structure you have. Or find a new one. This place will slow down and stop without fuel. You feed the flames.
I will also note, considering your refusal to hide serious PII, you are lucky no one has used that information, considering you have been talking about being suicidal.
I mean this very, very sincerely. You need better friends.
I know that you think that there's nothing wrong with them hyping you up and having your back 500% over the past few days. I understand why, because it feels like everyone is against you and these are the only people who are supporting you.
If you don't feel like you can be vulnerable with them, don't feel like you can drop the "lol i don't care" act... They are not your friends.
The only thing they're doing is nourishing these negative parts of you. Please, you seriously deserve better.
Remember how you talked about how easy it was for you to fall in with transmeds? Can you try to do some self reflection and see how this group of people you're currently with is very similar?
Real friends don't agree with everything you say, real friends would be honest with you.
please get off the internet. you genuinely need help right now, and i'm not being condescending. you need therapy. you need psychological aid. you do not need to be here and you shouldn't be here. go get help, actually go do better, get a real support group who encourages your growth, find positive and engaging hobbies and habits to enrich your life, and stay away from the internet for a while.
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(Anonymous) 2023-05-25 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)you lied about:
- tracing art on FR
- selling this traced art
- repeatedly tracing furry art and re-uploading this art (you still have not addressed this)
- telling SMR admins to delete posts
- AND you provided misleading screenshots to "prove" you did not message SMR admins, which makes all other proof you've provided questionable.
i understand forgetting things - i have had multiple TBIs that make daily life challenging. i understand being embarrassed by your past - we have all done stupid things we regret. but you're only "honest" after people provide screenshots that you cannot squirm out of, and then in addressing it you come across as deeply insincere by either providing some excuse or treating it like a meme/joke. you saying "i was shitty back then" is meaningless when you are still failing to appropriately address it now.
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(Anonymous) 2023-05-25 04:30 pm (UTC)(link)Particularly when they prefer to buckle down and escalate a situation again and again, consequences be damned.
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(Anonymous) 2023-05-25 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)This is not a healthy personality trait. You need to learn actually healthy coping mechanisms if you ever want to be better.
There is no reason to continue being this person. You can be a better and happier person if you put in the work and acknowledge that there are still very unhealthy traits about you.
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(Anonymous) 2023-05-25 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)If you can't trust any of your friends to support you in your moments of weakness, you truly have no good friends. My online friends, they see me when I'm angry, when I'm hurt, and they even saw and helped me through grieving. Never did any of them encourage or cheer on self harmful or inappropriate coping methods.
As someone with depression and a whole slew of other things wrong with me... I understand it's difficult. It's rough to drop the mask. But what you've done here is hurting you.
I told you before to stop replying, Dakkokki. I wasn't trying to be mean. I do believe you need to step away and talk to whatever real support structure you have. Or find a new one. This place will slow down and stop without fuel. You feed the flames.
I will also note, considering your refusal to hide serious PII, you are lucky no one has used that information, considering you have been talking about being suicidal.
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(Anonymous) 2023-05-25 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)I know that you think that there's nothing wrong with them hyping you up and having your back 500% over the past few days. I understand why, because it feels like everyone is against you and these are the only people who are supporting you.
If you don't feel like you can be vulnerable with them, don't feel like you can drop the "lol i don't care" act... They are not your friends.
The only thing they're doing is nourishing these negative parts of you. Please, you seriously deserve better.
Remember how you talked about how easy it was for you to fall in with transmeds? Can you try to do some self reflection and see how this group of people you're currently with is very similar?
Real friends don't agree with everything you say, real friends would be honest with you.
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