Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-02 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
i plan on going away soon but one of the things stopping me is that i have a special dragon and some other items (sprites, umas) that i’d hate to have rot away on a dead account. i have a friend, if i give it to them for safekeeping, like just to hold onto just in case i fail, itd look like funnelling, and then we’d both get locked because staff would absolutely notice. which sucks and i dont want to do that to them. what do

Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-02 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
hi op. i'm not going to pretend to know your situation, but as someone who made their flight rising account as a suicidal teenager and has managed to stay alive long enough to reach adulthood and getting away from some of the circumstances that made everything so much worse i just want to say that there is nothing too small to not be worth staying alive for. if not wanting your dragons or sprites or umas to be in an inactive account is enough to keep you holding on for another day then that is worth staying alive for. i know it feels impossible now, but the only way to know if it can get any better is to be alive to see it (and be alive to make it - for me, staying alive long enough to leave home and access therapy and medicine was so fucking hard, but it was worth it and as hard as recovery is it is better than the alternative 100 times out of 100)

be safe and be well. i know it can sound empty when you're in the thick of it, but it does get better and we can only make it better if we're still here

Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-02 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
+1
Having been in that mindset for most of my life (have childhood trauma and PTSD and depression from it), just know that any little thing you care for makes it worth it to keep going. Life isn't easy and sometimes we're dealt an absolute dogshit hand, but keep fighting. It does get better over time. And if it takes too long, you still get stronger and better at handling life in general. Also, it's okay to ask for help, reach out to someone you trust about any circumstances that are making things difficult.
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Re: OT Thread

[personal profile] vasemod 2024-08-05 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Nonny, I will not pretend I know anything going in your life or anything, but let me tell you life is worth living, no matter how shit and bleak it appears now it will eventually get better.

If anything, what kept me from doing what you plan on doing was thinking how much it'd hurt the people I'd leave behind and well, as Mindless said don't make those dragons, sprites and other frankly dead items turn into a memory of sadness for them.

I encourage you to think over it some more, I am aware I am a few days after this was posted but if anything please do think and maybe reach out to any of the resources posted before you do anything.

https://youarerad.org/

Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-05 06:53 pm (UTC)(link)
echoing all the other nonnies to say that while I absolutely cannot tell you what to do and your pain is valid, I also want to say as someone whose been there and attempted - things really do get better. I know that's annoying to hear and feels worthless and meaningless in the thick of it, trust me I thought the same way, but things do start to look up.

The key truly is holding on to those little things that make your life feel more worth it. You care about that dragon, and those special items, and that means you have a reason to keep going to keep enjoying them. Hold on to all those little things, nonny, and eventually they'll get bigger and bigger.

I wish you all the best and I hope you're still here with us, you'll get out of this one day.

Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-07 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey nonny. Just wanted to let you know, still thinking of you. Hope you're ok.

Re: OT Thread

(Anonymous) 2024-08-18 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Hugs for you anon, I literally tried the same thing recently LOL. I didn't want anyone to get accidentally flagged because of me leaving shit to them so I just didn't give anyone anything - I left my info for them in that case. Clearly because I'm typing this, I didn't succeed.

On a genuine note, I get exactly where you're at. You don't know who I am but I just want you to know that whatever is going on right now is not worth losing your life over. Things will change and you won't always feel this way. It's exhausting and you don't feel like fighting any more, I get it. I really do. But if there's any way you can force yourself to wake up and find at least one thing on this planet that brings you a tiny bit of joy, live for that and do the same each day until it gets a bit easier.

I love you, anon. I hope you hatch lovely eggs and find the most beautiful dragons :)