Shout-out to the time a few years ago when I posted on Anon Rising about how I'd given over a hundred spontaneous gifts on FR and people called me a narcissist for it. I was feeling pretty depressed and alone at the time and just wanted some anonymous recognition for doing a good thing, I guess, since no one on FR proper would ever know that I'd sent out so many gifts. Instead I got berated for... being nice to people? I legitimately don't even know what the issue was, but I stopped gifting people for years because of it. People literally convinced me that trying to be kind and put some good into the world was like... shitty of me somehow lmao.

And no, NPD has never come up in my many years of therapy/psychiatry, but you know what I've recently discovered I do have? OCD. Specifically, moral OCD. And one of my themes is that I'm secretly an ~evil manipulative narcissist~. So thanks for the completely unearned self-loathing spiral y'all sent me into back then.