hi op. i'm not going to pretend to know your situation, but as someone who made their flight rising account as a suicidal teenager and has managed to stay alive long enough to reach adulthood and getting away from some of the circumstances that made everything so much worse i just want to say that there is nothing too small to not be worth staying alive for. if not wanting your dragons or sprites or umas to be in an inactive account is enough to keep you holding on for another day then that is worth staying alive for. i know it feels impossible now, but the only way to know if it can get any better is to be alive to see it (and be alive to make it - for me, staying alive long enough to leave home and access therapy and medicine was so fucking hard, but it was worth it and as hard as recovery is it is better than the alternative 100 times out of 100)

be safe and be well. i know it can sound empty when you're in the thick of it, but it does get better and we can only make it better if we're still here